Yeah, and like....I know that. It's why I haven't really been pulling away. I like Barcus.
[ As if that weren't more than obvious at this point. ]
I know home can't be replaced but...it's weird how quickly this place is becoming a sort of home too. Like...I wouldn't mind living out whatever sort of life we could have here and then go back...
You’re welcome. I’m glad I could help. And honestly, I’m glad to have you here too.
[ He does still miss the others, of course. But he’d been glad someone had been here when he first arrived. He doesn’t know if he could have managed this whole new world on his own. ]
[ Ashton misses the others like a fish misses water. It's weird. They hadn't expected it but at some point the Hell's became their family and they knew they'd do anything for them.
And Dorian is one of them. Even if he hadn't been there long, even if Ashton had been kind of a dick to them, he was important too.
So Ashton just leans over, bumping shoulders with the other genasi and smirks. ]
At least between the two of us we can make sure Orym actually takes care of himself and not just him taking care of us.
Same! I mean I figured it out once but that was because that Prism chick cast a spell and we all just like....chilled out? I think that's the only time I've been able to actually meditate.
[ The Zeph'aeratam.
Something Ashton doesn't know but with how many times he's woken up to or just watched Orym perform it, feels like they could too. ]
That part...yeah I haven't done that but...i figured it's like. Kinda personal for him? I don't know. But you knew him before the Hell's, right? Was he all that different with the other group?
It’s a connection to the Ashari, I think. But he offered to show me, and the Squall has always had a close connection to Zephrah.
[ The question has him pause a moment, and he really does have to consider that. ]
…yes and no? He’s always been the most responsible one, the one who had to reign us in and keep us on track.
[ He falls quiet as he thinks about Orym when they’d been with the Crown Keepers, and comparing him to the Orym he reunited with. ]
Lately though it seems, he’s… even more so? Like, he doesn’t joke around as much as he used to. He’s holding so much weight on his shoulders now, and I’m… [ His frown deepens as his eyes look down at the table. ] A part of me is worried about him, once everything back home is over.
[ Hearing about the difference makes Ashton's face fall, from joking and banter to a much more series look. Biting his lip in a grimace, Ashton can't help but feel like Orym's seriousness is partially their fault. ]
Yeah well, he's been around a group of fuck ups who at any point could end up killing each other soooo. We haven't exactly made it easy for him to not be the responsible one...
[ And doesnt' that make them feel guilty as fuck?
They slump back in their seat, ordering another round before continuing. ]
Maybe...maybe we can do something here that'll help? I don't know...help the guy lighten up? He's too young to be that serious.
[ At least he seems like it. Wait....does Ashton even know how old his friend is? ]
[ Dorian glances over at Ashton, his brow furrowing a bit. ] I don’t think it’s really anyone’s fault. Orym is also just the kind of person who takes care of people. He’s a protector, and even though he doesn’t see it, he’s very good at taking the lead. He sees it as his responsibility, and it’s difficult not to lean on him too.
[ Dorian knows he’s just as guilty for that. ]
I’d like to do that for him as well. I want him to have a chance to just… be, you know? He deserves a chance to enjoy himself and be happy too.
[ They know that, really they do. It just sucks when said friend is trying to be the protector of someone who seems like they're trying to self sabotage almost whenever they can. ]
So what I'm hearing is that we need to give him the most domestic space as possible? Or something like that.
[ Dorian blinks, a soft blush rising to his cheeks when he realizes how what he says sounded. But then he laughs again and shrugs. ]
Please. Orym and I have been sharing a bed with Fearne long before we met all of you. [ Then he grins. ] I’m sure he wouldn’t mind if you ever wanted to join us.
[ Dorian shrugs a shoulder as he takes a drink from his mug. ] I know. So hopefully that means he won’t mind if you joined us for cuddling if you did decide to join us.
[ Dorian blinks in sunrise at that first part. While he had heard of relationships like that before, his minor dalliances back home didn’t give him enough experience with a relationship, let alone an open one.
And while he’d always been drawn to Orym since he met him, he had to admit (even to himself) that he would have been open to the idea of dating any one of the others if the opportunity had presented himself.
He wondered if Orym would be up to the idea…
He mentally shakes the thoughts away. He didn’t even know what he and Orym even are, never mind adding a third person to it.
…yet.
Shoving the thoughts down for now, he gives Ashton an easy grin instead. ]
Whenever you want. I’m sure Orym wouldn’t mind it either.
[ It's probably better that Ashton wasn't privy to what Dorian was thinking. Mostly because he'd be stuck between teasing the guy and deciding to hold himself back from the playful flirting.
Sure Ashton was willing to flirt with a couple people but for most it was just because he knew them. Barcus had made it easy, Dorian is familiar and comfortable, hell even teasingly flirting with Orym wouldn't be that weird for them. But if for a moment he thought Dorian or Orym would be uncomfortable with it or if it could cause issues with their relationship, Ashton would be out.
Instead he's just quietly laughing to himself over his mug. ]
God you guys make me fuckin' soft.
[ The words are more muttered.
Between Barcus and the two he lives with...definitely making him go soft so far from home. ]
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[ As if that weren't more than obvious at this point. ]
I know home can't be replaced but...it's weird how quickly this place is becoming a sort of home too. Like...I wouldn't mind living out whatever sort of life we could have here and then go back...
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Well, we don’t know how long we’ll be here, or even how to get home. So why not enjoy the time we have here?
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Yeah.
[ Just...draining the rest of his ale with small sigh. ]
Thanks, Dorian. For the talk and stuff...and this. It's...it's weird not having the others around but I'm glad I've got you and Orym here.
[ A sentiment he has no idea he'll be echoing again later. ]
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You’re welcome. I’m glad I could help. And honestly, I’m glad to have you here too.
[ He does still miss the others, of course. But he’d been glad someone had been here when he first arrived. He doesn’t know if he could have managed this whole new world on his own. ]
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And Dorian is one of them. Even if he hadn't been there long, even if Ashton had been kind of a dick to them, he was important too.
So Ashton just leans over, bumping shoulders with the other genasi and smirks. ]
At least between the two of us we can make sure Orym actually takes care of himself and not just him taking care of us.
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[ Ash looks at the other a moment. ]
Has he ever tried to get you to meditate with him?
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[ Too many anxious thoughts. ]
He has shown me the forms of the Zeph'aeratam, and I had done that with him before. I haven’t done them since before I left, though.
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[ The Zeph'aeratam.
Something Ashton doesn't know but with how many times he's woken up to or just watched Orym perform it, feels like they could too. ]
That part...yeah I haven't done that but...i figured it's like. Kinda personal for him? I don't know. But you knew him before the Hell's, right? Was he all that different with the other group?
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[ The question has him pause a moment, and he really does have to consider that. ]
…yes and no? He’s always been the most responsible one, the one who had to reign us in and keep us on track.
[ He falls quiet as he thinks about Orym when they’d been with the Crown Keepers, and comparing him to the Orym he reunited with. ]
Lately though it seems, he’s… even more so? Like, he doesn’t joke around as much as he used to. He’s holding so much weight on his shoulders now, and I’m… [ His frown deepens as his eyes look down at the table. ] A part of me is worried about him, once everything back home is over.
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Yeah well, he's been around a group of fuck ups who at any point could end up killing each other soooo. We haven't exactly made it easy for him to not be the responsible one...
[ And doesnt' that make them feel guilty as fuck?
They slump back in their seat, ordering another round before continuing. ]
Maybe...maybe we can do something here that'll help? I don't know...help the guy lighten up? He's too young to be that serious.
[ At least he seems like it. Wait....does Ashton even know how old his friend is? ]
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[ Dorian knows he’s just as guilty for that. ]
I’d like to do that for him as well. I want him to have a chance to just… be, you know? He deserves a chance to enjoy himself and be happy too.
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[ They know that, really they do. It just sucks when said friend is trying to be the protector of someone who seems like they're trying to self sabotage almost whenever they can. ]
So what I'm hearing is that we need to give him the most domestic space as possible? Or something like that.
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I think that sounds like a plan.
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I'll have to follow yer lead on that...not sure I'd know domestic if it hit me in the face.
[ Or so he says.
Even with being pretty fuckin' domestic with a certain gnome. ]
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I don’t know, you seem to have gotten the hang of it lately.
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Shut up...that's different.
[ No.
No it's not.
Given the chance he'd probably be the same with Dorian and Orym...if he didn't think it'd be weird. ]
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I mean, it doesn’t necessarily have to be.
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Staring. ]
I'd say if you wanted to share a bed all you had t'do was ask but...pretty sure a certain halfling would be jealous.
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Please. Orym and I have been sharing a bed with Fearne long before we met all of you. [ Then he grins. ] I’m sure he wouldn’t mind if you ever wanted to join us.
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[ This does get a small smirk and a raised brow. ]
But I'll keep the offer in mind.
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[ Ashton sort of trails off, like he's thinking about how to word things. ]
He and I have mentioned that we aren't strictly closed.
[ There's a teasing sort of wink before Ashton shakes their head. ]
Nah, I know what you mean though...and honestly...might take you up on it some time? It's nice, having people I feel like I can let in.
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And while he’d always been drawn to Orym since he met him, he had to admit (even to himself) that he would have been open to the idea of dating any one of the others if the opportunity had presented himself.
He wondered if Orym would be up to the idea…
He mentally shakes the thoughts away. He didn’t even know what he and Orym even are, never mind adding a third person to it.
…yet.
Shoving the thoughts down for now, he gives Ashton an easy grin instead. ]
Whenever you want. I’m sure Orym wouldn’t mind it either.
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Sure Ashton was willing to flirt with a couple people but for most it was just because he knew them. Barcus had made it easy, Dorian is familiar and comfortable, hell even teasingly flirting with Orym wouldn't be that weird for them. But if for a moment he thought Dorian or Orym would be uncomfortable with it or if it could cause issues with their relationship, Ashton would be out.
Instead he's just quietly laughing to himself over his mug. ]
God you guys make me fuckin' soft.
[ The words are more muttered.
Between Barcus and the two he lives with...definitely making him go soft so far from home. ]
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I think this is a good place to wrap?